There is something about a sexual fantasy that makes us want to both share it with the world and – at the same time – keep it privately locked up in our own erotic imagination.
These desires – to share and to keep private – are obviously often in conflict and can lead to some strange dynamics…. and this the topic of today’s blog.
My wife and I were out to dinner with friends recently. The wife, whom I am very close with, took me aside after dinner because there was something she just had to tell me. She went on to describe an globate masturbatory fantasy she had been developing over the past few weeks involving she and my wife dressing up and watching one another masturbate. She was obviously excited as she told the story and loved the fantasy she was developing. She went on, in wonderful detail, for about 10 minutes about how they would get dressed up together, sit across from one another and start to explore their own bodies, and then eventually each pleasure themselves with vibrators and watch one another reach climax. By the end of the story, she was flush.
But then the weird part… when she finished telling me this, she said that I could tell my wife, but that she really, really, did not want to ever speak of this again. She said she wanted to share, but she never wanted to talk about it again.
Weird. I have seen her since and made a vert vague illusion to the conversation, but it is crystal clear… she does not want to talk about it.
So, my simple question… what gives? Why was she so keen to share but then equally adamant that the subject is never to be discussed again?